Monday, October 31, 2005

Day+1: He's gone

Sorry that Chad wasn't able to give an update, but that's what happens at the last minute and everything you think you'll have time for, you just don't. Chad's now gone. I have had my moments of tears. It was really hard leaving him. Our oldest son, had a really hard time. He still remembers Daddy being gone last yr and he has a good concept that Daddy will be gone for a long time.

There's this feeling of such loss when you have to walk away from the bus. Your heart is just torn in half...half of it being left on that bus taking your husband away for the next year. Seeing your children crying and knowing that the person who could make them stop is leaving for the next year.

To be honest I'm really struggling to find the right words to even describe all the feelings inside of me. It's almost impossible, well it's completely impossible at this exact moment actually.

Chad said he'll hopefully have a chance to write an email in the next week for me to post on here.

I'll try to update later, and have it a better update at that.

 

 

15 comments:

jenniferinfla said...

I have gone thru that same "bus pulling away feeling" AND  dealing with the kids sadness....my husband is in AirForce....need someone to chat will just shout!

scotthlori said...

I somewhat know how you feel.  My brother was in Desert Storm.

Stay strong.  I know it must be hard when you have young ones.

Lori

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missycal8 said...

Christy, I had tears in my eyes this morning reading your entry of Chad leaving and your sadness. God is with you Christy. I am keeping Chad in my prayers for his saftey./
Michelle - AngelKaties mom

firestormkids04 said...

We're holding hands to pray together for you this morning.  Blessings, Rob, Penny and Andrea

fairylaura said...

That feeling is so close to home. I remember saying bye for the first time and it was so hard. Driving away from him was the hardest thing I had to do. I'm here for you hun. I'll always be here for you. (((HUGS)))

Laura

lv2trnscrb said...

Christy; God put you upon my heart today and I prayed for you. He knew what you are going through and how hard it would be to say goodbye to Chad. And how hard it is for Chad and the others to say goodbye to their loved ones. He is holding you both in the palm of his hand and he will never let you go.

Hugs to you; you and Chad will be in my thoughts and prayers every day of the time he is away from you and your boys. Hugs to your oldest too, for realizing the enormity of dad being gone. Again, thank you and Chad, for serving our country.

betty

tristannmbr2 said...

I am so sorry that you are ad right now!  I understand that feeling of feeling left behind by your man!  I got tears in my eyes reading this and look forward to reading this journal and your other one!  God be with you and Chad and your children!  big hugs, Vicky

cojlisa16 said...

God bless you Christy for what your family is sacrificing so we can all be safe.   Jacob is wise beyond his years, bless his little hurting heart.   I will pray for Chad's safety, his emotional and spiritual well-being, and for you and the boys every single day until he is home with you again.  That is my promise to you, my dear friend and it is the least I can do.  Love you all, Lisa

kiplingcrissy said...

Christy, I am so sorry. I don't know what to say.  Your in our hearts and prayers.  Those so many people for you to talk to in journal land alone; and, if you choose, I would listen to anything you need to say.
I want Chad to know that we thank him for what he is doing not only for us as americans, but all the other countries as well.
God Bless your entire family.
Cristina (big sis to a 82nd Airborne soldier)

mikalsgrl said...

Christy & little ones~

Chad will be in my families prayers...each and every day. With that being said, we wanted you to know the same goes for you and the boys. I know I am a LONGGGG way from Germany......but I am just a few types away....my email and IM's are always open.....please use them. I know from what you have said on the board....you are going to be very busy.....and that is truly the best for you and the boys. God bless you Christy, Chad and Children

Todd and Cindy

bekahbutterflies said...

We're keeping you all in our prayers.  We love you and send you our love.

deshelestraci said...

I'm sorry I haven't had a chance to read journals this week.  My sister is visiting from Portland, OR.  I am so sorry he is gone already.  I will send prayers for peace of mind.
Traci

creativecolors19 said...

Im so sorry that your heart is torn right now.  BUt I now that God will help fill that void for both of you!!  You guys are always in my prayers!!  HUGS!!

butterflies4me04 said...

AWWW I'm sorry you had to say goodbye for another year! :(

Theresa

deanfm6 said...

Christy-

My prayers are with you sweetie.  I wish I could just give you a big hug and come hang out when you were feeling lonely.  Please know that I am here anytime you want to talk.  

Chad-

Thank You for serving our country!  You are a true American Hero!!  God Bless you and Keep you safe.  You are in our prayers!!!  

Lorri
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