Friday, April 17, 2009


I'm so sick and tired of this deployment. Seriously I'm tired, I'm sick of it, and I just want my husband home. Call me selfish, just don't give me the pat answers, I'm not in the mood and won't approve it. See told you, bad mood.

The kids are obviously done as well, I know they miss Chad, but their behavior has just bypassed not ok, to absolutely destestable and infuriating. If I could, I'd seriously run away, from ALL of them. My youngest is teething and she only has these last 4 and they're just killing her. They're not her molars. She's been having meltdowns and of course so many of them have been in public. My boys are being so defiant.

I'm tired. I miss my husband, my children miss their dad. I miss having someone here in the evenings to talk to, share with, someone to hold me. I'm ready to be able to just go to the store for 15 minutes alone.

Please just pray. I know tomorrow will be a better day. Tonight though, I'm just so tired of all of it. I know our Lord will get me through this. Just ready for him to be home.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Trace Adkins...whew wipe the tears

I posted this on my main blog already, but I know there's a couple of you that may not read that blog...this touched me so much tonight as I watched the ACM's tonight.